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Saturday, November 10, 2007

Two Choices What would you do? make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice? At a fund raising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: 'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?' The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. 'I believe, that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.' Then he told the following story:Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.' Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first! Run to first!' Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!' Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home. All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!' As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!' Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team. 'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother >tearfully embrace her little hero of the day! AND NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail or sms without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate. The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces. If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address or contact book who aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.' So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process? A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.
You now have two choices:
1. Ignore
2. Paste this story on ur blog

@ 11/10/2007 01:48:00 AM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

we are always told to put in a 100% for whateva we do.. what do we get back in return? is it always the results u always wanted to have? i gotta start slappin' myself and start waking up..Things that u wan u will try ur best at obtaining it..if u get it, i believe u will be over the moon.but what if u dun? u fall right down to where u were before in life.. u fall so hard that its just so hard to face reality once again.. take for example..A boy when he was 7.. he had no friends when he started out in school.. all he had was his grandmother.. his parents were never there for him... whenever he needed them.. they werent there.. only his grandmother..her love,concern was his everything.. he had no friends till he tried talking to his class mate sitting next to him. things worked out great.. "my first best friend" he thought.. who would have known.. the next week.. the kid transfered school.. once again.. he was alone.. back to home everyday after school.. into the warmth of his grandmother.. that was the daily routine..he tried hard to climb back up and start to talk to people.. slowly.. he managed to climb out of that hole.. from primary 4 till his psle.. he has a great deal of friends.. but so the end of the psle.. he was posted to a school where he had troubles again.. no friends.. no one whom he can put his trust in..he fell right back into that hole which he tried so hard to climb out..still.. he didnt give up.. soon circles of friends started to surface again.. but he manage to have these friend simply because.. he had to wear a mask.. he can nvr be his own true self.. whereva he go .. the mask follows.. people see this boy.. the impression given would be "nice kid,responsible,disciplined,well mannered" thats the mask they all see..Whats under that mask.. is a face where peopel wan to avoid.. too much saddness.. too much tears..too negative...

what im trying to say here is that no matter how hard he try... he will keep falling back into that hole.. so what if hes out of it.. that mask forever stay on his face.. impossible to remove..
just like many of the people on earth..we are all wearing a mask that hides ourselves..Who knows what are u like? only u know urself best..

this is kind of a random post.. just needa to blurt out some stuff...long time since i made a post and the first is already smth unpleasent... sorry if u think im offending u but my story has nth to do with anyone i know of..

@ 10/16/2007 10:58:00 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007

ok nth much happened today tho its my bdae.. But i guess this will be my first and last time going school during my bdae.. i actually got scolded "fuck off" in class..WHY? cuz i didnt wanna go for dragonboating..WHY? cuz the whole team is goona disband anyway.. Train like dog, train till muscule feel like its gonna tear any moment like and by 29 july..DISBAND~ i seriously dun get the idea of it.. and whats worst.. people dun wan go we nvr say anything .. i dun wanna go kanna sweared bdae summore..but i must say.. its realli a rare present to get sweared on during ur birthday dun u think? people would be wishing u happy bdae.. joke around.. and get to be sweared on is not something u can actually get.. I bet my last dollar most of you dun even get to experience it.. Darn arnt i fortunate?

Oh well.. i dun realli give a @#$% bout d-boating and all..and i currently considering should i even go to the yr-end trip.. i mean i cant be bothered anymore.. and i think actually manage to control my temper since sec 4 till now.. I used to hot-tempered.. small small things oso wan fight rofl.. thinking back made me look stupid..but oh well at least i know how to control my tempers now..

Today spent almost whole day in school.. play soccer after school then went and watch inter-house soccer.. ben and tbs were part of the team...after that came home and now slacking in front of com... i dun wanna go school tmr >.< L-a-z-y! lolx.. well stopping here to go game abit..
Thanks to those who wished me.. You guys made my day..

(The best was experience today)

@ 7/12/2007 08:52:00 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

Its been almost a month since i last update this blog.. lol..lazy~.. well thigns arent mostly going the way i wanted it to be.. Firstly..
To you :Maybe hes right.. we should not sms so much ba.. i mean ur already attacted.. people might get the wrong idea.. and i dun wanna be like an asshole who doesnt know my limits.. so yea.. better stop ba.. i like smsing u and all.. its fun.. but cheering u up and making u laugh is mostly his job.. not mine.. as a friend.. maybe not this i hope u understand..
(get him to read my blog)
To you: Im truly sorry that i smsed her so much..I dun wan u to think that im like trying to "steal" her away from u.. cuz i wont.. but for me ur being abit over-sensitive? its not cuz of this im saying it..Its like sometime its just a misunderstand between the both of u.. dun blame her for tell me.. but anyway just try to get things right before saying her ba.. but u dun have to listen to me.. im just giving my advice/view to u..maybe there are things that i i wont say much..

Ok.. enuf bout this le..haha time for my other update.. mmm.. so many things happen between my last update and now... some oso dun rmb le.. everytime oso like that wan blog le then forget lol..anyway.. @#$%! the goverment for rising the GST again.. almost everything increase by 50 cent? Tis is alot of money can.. u try buy 1 item 50 cent ok nvm.. u go shopping for daily items.. 10x0.50=$5! Thats alot liao lor.. wa kao.. standard of living so high le still go increase.. siao ar? think we singaporeans earning hundreds of thousands per mth meh.. think of those families every month both parent income add up only 2k..eletricity bill+water bill+daily usage+daily pocket money=left wit how much to spend? and worst if both of the parents smoke right? one packet of cigarettes=$11.40.. if both heavy smoker=$22.80 a day..1 month already $706.80 spend on cigarettes.. how to survive on $1293.20 like that? wan to rise gst then rise meh? Got think of the country first anot? So what we have the lowest GST among all developed country? we are just a small country.. our resources are limited, we dun have land like USA,natural resources like oil in saudi arabia.. We are just a piece of Sh!t on the map.. so many land are being reclaimed to increase the land area of singapore liao..Still we are just a Freaking small dot on the map.. its not going to make a difference if our GST is the lowest or not..singaporeans all dun dare to voice out our unhappiness cuz y? if we challenge u..All we get is free meal in a cubic room wit bars and toilet next to our sleeping mat which we place on the floor.. so why always say its for the country that u goverment rise the GST/prices? you call urselves the peoples' party/goverment but most of the time its making things hard for the PEOPLES life? I mean wth? Yes you guys are godo in running the country,smart and hard-working but whats going through your minds when u guys tot of increasing the standard of living? not all of us make big money every month like you people..The building of the IR at marina bay for the F1 races to take place, wont be on for the long run.. y would peopel sit in their racing cars wit thick/fireproof suits in this kind of weather? yea to them its a new track.. they will come and race.. but in the long run they dun like the track they go back to their own countries and race on their own tracks.. Thats what MIGHT happen in like 10-30yr down the road.. so why even waste the money building it? Might as well invest those money in to the R&D of the SAF? will the track help us if we get attack by other countries? or invest it into Medical sciences to find out ways to prevent virus from attacking the people wit weak immune system?
School teachs us bout the past and how we developed from a small nation.. but dun you guys feel the development is going too fast for singapore to keep up?If you say singaporeans can keep up then why are they homeless people?Dun tell me its because of the bad habit of gambling,you guys even built a casino! isnt that allow peopel to gamble more? by restricting poor people from going in,you guys are actually being bias instead of helping them.. Why do you think there are illegal gambling dens operating in singapore?Its all because of what u guys are doing.. If u stricly dun wan people to gamble, why made "Singapore pools"? u are encouraging people to gamble..
Cant you guys see how u are damaging the life of singaporeans?

ok enuf.. type all this till im angry..lolx.. don u think what i said is true? or maybe cuz im just thinking too much about life.. lolx.. k type till here.. update next time :P

@ 7/06/2007 04:45:00 PM

Monday, June 11, 2007

Finally got my com repaired.. got it reformatted.. so i lost all my games/datas.. sad.. all pictures oso.. anyone wanna send me phtos? pleaseeeee do so! guys i dtill got all those pic we ton at ponggol in my phone..dun worry..Others all lost -.-..kk update time

Monday 4th june

Went to celebrate pamela's bdae at sentosa..had to meet at 11.45am at mos..but when i call mei eng,she still at home so i take my time.. then just nice i think if so late meet how to get the prezzie done..then mei eng call again ask me delay pamela' then i recieve a sms pam say she meet me at amk.. then i ok lor but i told her i at home still bathing.. then i take train form khatib to dhouby ghaut then back to amk.. had to be the decoy ma so drag long long lor.. so i met up wit her at amk mrt.. she late cuz went home take her cheese cake..(fyi:the cheese was kinda nice..very word:NICE) haha.. then we go down bishan.. was suppose to meet the rest inside then the da xiao jie wanted drink water.. i offered to go buy from her buy she die die wan go out tgt to get teh drink.. i didnt know what to do but nvm just follow.. she say wan go toilet.. then she go lor.. then we say poh ee.. then i realise smth.. mei eng they all there.. another grp who is wei ling jaz and feli went to mrt to find us.. so had to faster pretend to rush pam go mrt again.. kns.. so went back then go dhoby ghaut.. tehn reach le i said i had to go home cuz my mum dun allow.. then they go i stay to wait for the rest to come.. haha.. so we went to sentosa cove.. cuz heliane's dad is a member ma so he decided to bring us there.. the first grp go prepare.. second grp come then i went wit uncle to go fetch them.. they even blind-fold pamela..
then when the took it down.. pam eyes red-red one.. dunno cuz eyes cover too long or too touched?but i dunno la..then sing song.. OHOH u know we all ate in the swimming pool? such cool sia.. the tables and chairs all in teh pool thgen we all just sit.. haah uncle was very nice.. He treat us ALL eat lor.. F&C leh.. not cheap cuz is at cove ma.. then my pants kana bleached -.- my shirt from brown become like pink? lmao.. then after eat we all go siloso beach.. played for awhile then they ask pamela to go find a card.. then all of then wanna push pamela down le.. then cecilia faster go push her in.. in teh end u knwo what happened? cecilia try to push pamela down into the water then we all stand and watch. suddenly "SPLASH!" guess who fall in.. cecilia herself..LOL i there laugh like mad like that.. dam funny sia..after that everyone started playing wit water le.. then after that go change to dry clothes then go home le.. then in train felicia give pamela her cheeze fishball pamela eyes went big like the fishballs in front of her and said"she remember!" haha can see she very happy.. summore the fishballs feli ownself cook de wor.. haha.. then after that all go home sleep le..

Tuesday 5th june

had to wake up at 0900 to get ready for work.. like shit man,, after i bath and all the time already like 0920 le.. had to rush to work.. then i reach my work place at 1001? Lucky no customers i went punch my card then go sweep floor le.. after like 2 hours? then first customer come in..haha so relax can? so i decided whole month work morning till like 1700..easy stuff.. after 5 went home..then thats bout all..the following days after the 5 th of june about the same ba..

Monday 11th june

Woke up at 0845 today.. had to set alarm.. cuz dun wan late for work.. then go bath then go work.. on the way as the train wan to stop at bishan then if u at the first few cabin will pass some area of the platform area ma.. then i saw someone wearing my company's uniform.. then the face like blurblur one then reading book.. then i rmb cecilia got work so i just call her to comfirm where is she.. so ya found out its her... no wonder the face like blur blur one.. so just went work but today early morning got people le.. irritating.. y do they have to come so early.. just work as usual.. then after like at 1400.. jones and shirley ask me eat le ma i said no.. then hor they ask kitchen specially cook spag bolo for me leh.. soo good lor.. dunno y today the people so nice to me.. u knwo i work hor.. i can just stand at the area near teh kitchen dun do anything,manager walk pass oso nvr say anything.. haha then i wanted to restock the fruits for the fresh juices ma.. then i just go take and cut.. manager see me just walk pass nvr say anything they know i not in kids bar but they stll diam diam.. haha(kids bar is a place at my work for making juices and milkshakes) dam fun.. like teh work place i own de wahahaha.. enjoyed working today.. OHOH.. on the way to teh mrt i saw this 2 girls dam pretty de.. got 1 look like fiona xie de.. ahah.. 1 is cute 1 is pretty..BUT kns they les de -.- they stand at bus-stop then the girl who look liek fiona xie go kiss the lips of that girl.. so many people still dare.. what is teh world turning into?!
oh i forget to mention.. i have been working my arms out this holiday..haha got dumb-bell from my uncle so im starting to train my amrs since my com was actually suppose to be down.. everyday train shiok :P
kk write till here.. wanna go try my game can work anot..

@ 6/11/2007 10:51:00 PM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Booya!! lol its been a F***ing long time sinced i blogged but as promised im back after O level chinese..xP well i think im gonna fail it anyway..and this is the first time i wrote like 400+ for my letter.. my compo only like 312? lolx anyway.. on the 26 went and ton wit benson,boon siew,haresh,wee tuck and shun sheng..drank jim bean.. took some photos..oh and 1 more thing.. they like drinking "on the rock" >.> i had a few cup and stopped.. dint wanna get drank/high..for i am a weak drinker kinda hard for me to update the past.. too many to actually update tho.. But i wanan watch "POTC:at world's end" heard from my ex-working friends it was nice..must watch.. lolx.. well.. gonna go k-box tonight.. wonder if they gonna drink chivas again.. after that going cheryl house.. hopefully no one falls asleep again.. haha.. thats all for now..

@ 5/29/2007 05:46:00 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Yo.. been awhile since i blogged.. i want to write everything that happened in here but.. i forget what i wanna write le -.- everytime like that..KNS..Oh ..update on thursday,friday and today..


Didnt go school today.. Sportsday.. i think school called me but i was in teh bathroom preparing to go meet the 3 wonderful people for a biking session at east coast.. When we reach there.. we realised the aunty whom we always rent our bikes from closed down..Then this Kit runner guy came and said"dun bother looking,it closed down.." Wa i wan punch him sia.. say till kit runner so big deal -.-.. but oh well, still got our bikes from them.. but the bikes condition like shit man..Gear changing oso got problem..after that we went eat.. WA all spicy food leh..but nice.. haha..After eat we cycle around watch peopel water ski.. then go home le..


supposed to go to genting.. in the end cancled.. Due to some unforeseen circumstances..Then was very fed-up.. cuz i was looking forward to this trip up there la.. end up cancle..kns..after that parents say wan go in johor to the new opened shopping centre.. then i had to follow.. so i went in.. JUSCO.. is a nice place.. alot chio bus man!!Caught follwo the law there.. movie tickets only $3.50 LOL.. cheap man... dam funny the show.. fann wong actually acted like a ah lian lor..Cute..after show went dinner then wan go back singapore..on teh way i saw teh traffic -.- kns.. DAM long.. teh petrol pump guy say u can easily wait in that queue for like 3-4 hr..WA i totally pissed off shouldnt have come in.. lolx.. then my uncle suggested the second link then less traffic.. heng.. reach singapore like 1.30 am ..


Didnt u know it was u who changed me?Is it that hard for u to realise? Zhen de hen nan shuo chu kou..Zhe san ge zi jing cang zai wo xing li hen jiu le..Nan dao ni yi dian ye mei gan jue dao ma?Wei she me ni yao zhe yang dui wo ne?Wo hao xiang ni.. Ke shi wo zhi neng zai yuan cu kan zhe ni na ge can lan de xiao rong..

sian.. Feli-baba if u read this dun anyhow guess hor.. Chut-Chut oso.. xD anythign u wan know can ask me personally..

Well today nth much la time mostly spend at home..other then going out with mum for her facial treatment...

@ 4/07/2007 10:28:00 PM


Cant get song going atm..
will try to do it asap.. =)


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